It hit me as I was looking out across the city. The sun is rising but there is a fog so the sky tower and the city are wrapped in mist.
What it is that I'm looking for ..
I like where I'm living the two people I live with are great.
Its the unkept promises in other places in my life, I will ring, Yes lets do that, of course, . . .
It is these things that burrow down and hit the place where it hurts it that not being wanted by the things places people that I want.
I don't even know why I want them
but I do
I'm going out for coffee today with some raandom strangers to fill my time.
There seems to be so much time
but then so much time has past and I feel like I am chasing butterflies to try and catch up and ending no where.
If this is all there is how do I make this enough.
I miss someone that doesn't exist.