Wednesday, 25 February 2009

First day of Lent

Decided to get in the spirit of things this year and give something up (even though I'm not Catholic)
As we know I'm a little short on vices . . . .some may say I should be taking something up for Lent
So . . .. .
This year I am giving up McKoy's potato chips at 260 calories a bag and the fact that left to my own devices I may consume up to 5 bags
This being down to the fact that if my mouth is full I can't tell people what I'm really thinking

Sunday, 22 February 2009

trying to find my limits

I know what some of my limits are - from the beginning of the year

Physically I continue to look for them I guess the beating heart going wild and trying to push my self further. When others stop through pain I just continue to walk through things putting one foot in front of the other. Today was not hard though, but serously maybe I shouldn't drink and then do these things the rest of the team were in bed before midnight giggle

I have a tendency to walk by myself it gives me a chance to think and just be

I was hit by a memory as we were driving back in the dark - trance music playing . . it reminded me of a late night drive from the south of france to geneva . . I was happy that weekend
I need to make some new happy memories ones not tinged in sadness

Saturday, 21 February 2009

One question a day

I suppose like a cat I like to play with my victims

So I ask the man one question a day

It is his choice then whether to answer it or not

todays question was

Would you let me photograph you?

Of course he replied naked ;)

It made me smile . . . . this week has been dipped in intence sadness for one of our friends eo-per-nex decided to leave us early, but like most of our friendships here we have words passed back and forth like notes in childrens classrooms written quickly but with meaning not always for everyone
This photo is one I took while trying to wrap my head around eo-per-nex's goodbye. It is that last flash of sunset before we are plunged into darkness to await the raising of dawn and a new day

Thursday, 19 February 2009

sometimes it feels like it is fading

Rage against the fading light as the sun dips down
the rush of cold accross our skin
watching shadows play
accross the city
I reach for your hand

but no one is there
I never found you

I turn from the glow and walk away

Wednesday, 18 February 2009

and some days I bore even myself!!!

I think I need theropy honestly
What woman in her right mind turns down dinner and no strings sex??

That will be me

Dam my upbringing

Monday, 16 February 2009

Clearing out the crazies

I'm slowly clearing through them at the moment

they depress the hell out of me

back later


to whom it may concern

please can you reframe from handing out maps to all the crazy people telling them where to find me

kind regards
PS. a girl can only handle so many nut jobs in her life at one time

Tuesday, 10 February 2009

Break point

when did dating simply become the battle of the sex's
There is more single people then ever before but no one seems to meet the right person
There is of course the most comercial day of the love calender coming up this saturday hope everyone is fully advanced with their plans

There is a high chance I will spend it watching rugby with the girls as the man and I are both in a dead lock and neither of us are standing down

we have thrown our gauntlets down but neither of us will break front line to pick up

I can hear some of you going man? who? where?

there is of course allot going on in my world

I'm a bit dazed and confused and wondering

Monday, 2 February 2009

Too much like hard work!!

This whole dating thing of course
it feels like I'm being interviewed for a job I don't really want but would make a good career change and some of the benefits seemed ok

later . . . . .